With You, Again

I know, I've back-peddled. But I didn't do this on a whim. I made a touch decision. I listened to my heart. I only hope that she won't fail me. I'm not sure how much more my mind can take.

I just have to forgive you for what you've done and so far, it's been very, very difficult. It consumes me some days. Some mornings I wake up and look at myself in the mirror and all I can see are their faces....those other girls. I hate one of them so badly sometimes it scares me. I've never felt hatred like that before. It's something I am releasing day by day. I imagine in my mind talking to her face to face, but on other days I forget her name.

Tori's song doesn't apply in this case - she isn't pieces of me that you've never seen. She's an empty shell. I think that was what you were looking for, something easy. The good stuff, the real stuff, is never easy. This won't be easy.

Here I am with you, again.