Running

It's so difficult to be around people who are battling an addiction. It gives me flashbacks at times. The less I think of what you put me through, the better.

So I keep running. Literally. And it takes me further and further away from you. I've run far enough away that I feel I'm safe.

Distant Memories

You become more and more of a distant memory, and I am not averse to this whatsoever. My subconscious has been playing tricks on me, planting you in my dreams, but I have to resist. You're always crawling back into my life. Please do not let these dreams have any relevance. Hope you're enjoying your Craigslist girlfriend and her three children, you shadow of a man.

Gone

You are gone, out of my life. The circle is complete. I made the correct decision. Such a long story to tell, full of twists and turns that seem too far-fetched for real life - they must be fiction? But no, it all happened. From July onward we went downhill..and I didn't make a deal with the universe this time. I let it go. I opened the wound and let it bleed out. You'll never hurt me again, you will never consume me again. What pity I have for you and your foolish mindset, your even more foolish family that goes around believing your lies.

And you've already found someone new. I'd like to say a few things to her, but then again - no one was there to save me. I'll let her figure it out for herself.

You stopped drinking, but you never rid yourself of your addiction.

Forty-Five Days

Forty-five days will decide our fate.

That's all the time that there is.

It will slip away so easily.

Untitled

Basking in your misery, I think you enjoy it by now. Without misery you wouldn't be who you are. You're so afraid to be happy you won't even dabble. You're so afraid someone will take it away from you, so you sit in misery. You sit alone.

You always lie straight to my face because you believe the lie, but I will see through it. I'm trained to see the lies. I've seen yours, and I'm sure I will see more again. I can do hyper-vigilance, baby. It's my specialty. I'm always one step ahead.

Middle Ground

I know I can be a difficult person to deal with. I try. Really, I do. This impatience is strangely ingrained in me. We are two of the most stubborn people on this planet. You usually back down and let me have my way. I guess we need to find a middle ground.

Limits

I can't live with such uncertainty. I've fought so hard to get where I am...I can't go back to the way I used to live. I can't do it and I won't. I'm pressing my limits right now.